For Future Me - Break Up Day 5 Morning

Hi,

The most tragic feeling every morning.
Empty and losing feeling.
Killing my heart slowly.....

I read his text.
It’s only.
- bhaik
- iya sudah kok hehe

If it hurts you a lot dear me.
I will stop this.
I will stop begging for him.
If i begged and made you getting worse.

I will stop.

Easy word that people always say:
“ if someone didn't care”
“ why should you”
Of course yes.... i love him so much.

How come.....
:’(

I’m crying now.
Remembered his kindness, gave me microphone
sent it along the way from Jakarta to Surabaya.
And tell me “happy karaoke”
Less than a week before he broke me up.
And it happened so sudden.
Breaking everything so hurtful.

I’m still asking.
Why?
Why?
What happened?


And you will come with.
We have already had long discussion.
And it’s enough.

I’m so afraid thinking he will be with someone else.
I’m so afraid.
More than anything.
I’m so afraid.... if all the love he had for me will be for someone else.
I’m so afraid.... if all the attention he had will be for someone else.
It’s hard to accept and believe....
He is not mine anymore.
Everytime it comes to my mind.
I cant breathe, it really hurtssss!

Dear future me,
You’re really in the hardest break up ever.
It’s totally painful.
If you’re doing good now.
Thank you and i appreciate it a lot.
I appreciate it a lot.
I do.
Thank you do much for through this.
Thank you so much for staying so strong.
I do appreciate.
I wanna hug you.
And say well done.
Great job.
See you’re doing well now.