For Future Me - Break Up Day 8

Hi,
I have flight with him today.

I thought something better.
And it’s worse.
We didn’t talk.
I cant believe we become stranger.

I felt bad.
Was crying at home.
I felt lonely, ignored.

It’s so hurtful.

I was pretending that i’m fine.
Back to work.
I did make up and blowed my hair.
So it wouldn’t be that mess.

I was crying in taxi along the way from airport to home.
I couldn’t stop crying.

My mom was confused and frustrated.
She texted him.
Let him know my situation.
He texted me, he said he called but I didn’t answer.
He thought I wouldn’t talk to him anymore.

I replied.
Said sorry.

I was crying.
Failed pretending.
Failed let him know, i was getting better.
I lose my pride.
Myself.
Everything.

I have never felt this crazy, confused and depressed.
I couldn’t get anyone advise or suggestion.

It sucks.
Sucks!