For Future Me - Break Up Day 9

Hi,
Today is my first day back to work after long holiday.

In the morning, my taxi driver took wrong direction.
And made me through his office building.
And the road to his place.

I spent a whole day super productive.
And the evening came.
I talked with new friend about his marriage life.
Most of the boys who knows i broke up.
They said, he has someone else.
Everytime i think about that.
Makes my chest more in pain.
It’s crazy, unbelievable.
When you said to me dont ever cheat on him.
And he has someone else.
It’s impossible and unbelievable.
But who knows?
They said.

I spent time until no one left in the office.
My taxi driver (agail) took wrong direction and made me through his office building.
I was crying on my way back to home.
Painful.
Tired.


I took sleeping pill.
Slept and dreamt of him.
Woke up some times in the mid of night.
Previously i woke up to check, is he home yet?
To ensure he arrive home safely.

I opened my phone.
And nothing.
Emptiness that breaks the heart and feeling.
Tired.
Why does love make people struggle like this?
Why does love hurt?