Break Up - 1st month

I’m taking double sleeping pills.
It still doesn’t work.
If killed myself would not make me live in hell forever.
Maybe i have took all of the pills!

You can think that i’m crazy or whatever.
You just have no idea, how the pain ruins my life.
And you?
Enjoy your life.
Wow.
Run away.
NO WORDS!!!
No explanation!

It’s been a month.
You dont contact me today.
You actually forget the promise.
Have you ever re-thought about us in this month?
Like you said?

Can you just keep your own world?
Do you think you deal with with tree or stone?

You said “i will never leave you”
Fucking bullshit.
Once you decided to leave.
See?
“I’ll help you through this”

Throw me away.
Like.
Nothing happen.

If i could throw away this disgusting love.
I will kick it awayyy!!! From my life!!!!!

I am spending my evening crying like stupid girl.
Disgusting.
You simply said “kamu melihat dari sisi pesimis dan dramatis”
Heartless!

Do you even have heart?

I asked to 4 professional help.
See? I’m trying and i want to move or even jump from this situation.
And you simple said, like i dont want to drag myself out!
Of course i want!!!!! More than anyone.
I’m speechless at all!!!!
How come someone like you talk like that???


Anggi, promise me... you will through this ok?
I know, this is hard for you.
It’s ok to cry.
Hug-
Urself in the future, i’m waiting here.