Break Up - Week 5

i wake up this morning with headache.
I didnt take the sleeping pills for 2 days.
My body felt crazy tired but I couldn’t sleep at all.
All of my body and soul was incredibly tired and sick.
I was crazy my mind was full of you, my mind kept feeding me with story of you.

I bought another sleeping pills last night.
All i want just sleep peacefully.
2 days at office, with cups of coffe couldn’t help me to work.
My stomach felt unwell, i would like to throw everything away.

I never knew, break up or broken heart could be this bad.
I read books, articles, listening everything in podcast to help me healing.
But my head is in so much pain, my chest is so tired and so much hurt.
I can’t understand what happen with myself.

This morning.
I wake up.
And.
I miss you.

I really do.

Why do u change so much?
Why do u become someone i dont recognize?

What should i do if you had someone else?
How come you don’t think about me?

But like you said.
Enough.
Questions will be always there.


It’s crazy, holding all of the feeling alone.
The most hurtful feeling i’ve ever felt.



Anggi,
Hanging there ya.
Please stay strong, dont die, keep breathing :(
If i could hug you, i will come to hug.
I’m waiting here.
-yourself in the future-