moving

It's saturday night, on my way to my friend's wedding.

I have too much in mind, makes me coming back to this.

Complicated tought and feeling.

I am going to leave from my 6years 2nd home.

It's funny i dont feel anything

Kinda numb

Sadness? Idk i just want to leave.

No, i haven't met my therapist, lol.

clouds

When was the last time I share something here?

A year ago?

I have so much thoughts lately.

It's hard to describe how I feel, what I think 

I am planning to continue my discussion with my therapist.

It has been 2 years I stop meeting her, I thought everything will be fine.

But lately the black clouds is coming and filling my body with those uncomfortable pain.

I keep pulling myself from others.

Anxious to talk with others.

Keep ignoring people who reach out to me.

I hate everything with no reason.

Losing motivation to work and keep spending money impulsively.

What's going on?