hole

After long time, i feel the hole inside again.

seeing you again

After almost 2 years.

Tomorrow will be the first i meet him

I am sure i dont have any feeling left.

But somehow, i really dont want to talk with him, wasting my energy to talk face to face.

Lets face it and go home! 

weird night

I find myself hard to fall a sleep.

Even the body feels tired.

So many things come up to my mind.

I start losing my way, what do i really want?

I am thinking to take long break.

And just be there for myself.

Let myself take a break from everything for a while.

Birthday Gift

Hi,
Omygod I am 30.
LOL.
Surprisingly, I feel excited (kinda weird I know)
I always thought and felt anxious every time thinking about being 30 but when the time it comes.
Ok, so so and excited.

I gave myself the best bday gift ever.
It likes appreciation for staying alive for 30 years (ha ha ha, it's not easy hey!)
Finally, I visited Switzerland.
YES! SWITZERLAND! 
I was spending a week there.
I still can't believe, I really came there.

Unbelievable...
I thought I could never come there.
But I really made it.
It was crazy.

It was real..

Last Month being 20's

 Hi,

I guess life is going well since I stop writing for a while.
Hmm,  i see it's getting better or maybe i just become stronger somehow (which is good, right?)
So, if you see me in the future, I decided to move for a while to Bali.
I have been living here for almost 3 months, traveling a lot in the middle of my busy work.

How's my feeling now?

Last October, I got a text from him and he asked me to meet up. 

I rejected since I didn't see the urgency to meet him after more than a year. He said he would apologize.

I was laughing, where have you been? This year a learn a lot about how to forgive and let go of the grudge. I am so tired of my anger and waiting for people to apologize, realize their mistake, realize that what they did hurt me. But in life, if everything happens as we wish, it's not life, right?

Until now, I realize that forgiveness is not for them. It is for me to have a more peaceful mind. I know the sadness is sometimes still there, but nothing I can do except to feel the sadness, take a breath, talk to myself that "hey, you'll be fine"

It's good to have a break in Bali, I went to the beach a lot. I got tanned and it's very tanned.
Somehow I don't care, I don't want to have any regret or at least minimize any regret in the future.

Thank you for my 20's

Thank you for staying strong, surviving from so much pain, and achieving so much good things.

I am so proud of you.

Take care of your feeling, live with the best life you can give to yourself, buy the best things for yourself.

You deserve all of the good things in this world.

Thank you for my 20's!

I am so happy with i have today.

Welcome to 30's life!