Dialog resah senin dini hari

12.12 am


Akan jadi percuma bertanya ke seribu orang,
Kalau bukan satupun dari mereka yang punya jawaban.

Apa yang ditakutkan?
Kamu tahu persis siapa yang punya jawaban.

Takut ditinggalkan?
Kenapa?
Pada akhirnya semua orang akan ditinggalkan dan meninggalkan.
Hanya soal waktu.

Kamu takut kesenangan ini lenyap kan?
Kamu takut sendirian?
Kamu takut dilupakan?

Ketakutan imaji akan kesenangan hilang.
Imaji akan kenyamanan hilang.
Kamu tahu bahkan ini semakin terasa semu.

3 am

3.19 am
What am i doing? Waking up with idk what exactly i feel.
That bitch easily disappear (again). What. The . Hell!
But i only end up with long list quetions in my head, getting mad with myself.
Falling for something make people become stupid and not realistic.


Gah! Maybe i just need to have jogging before working today!
Dont be mad dont be mad.
Dont cry dont cry.
Take a breath take a breath.
The pain will go away.
Will go away.
You can handle it many times.



Let meeee sleeeeeeeppppppppp!

Life Lately

After long time, due to busy life should manage the work load and school at the same time and now, i am here. Back to my bed room. Spend my weekend here, not doing anything, lying on my bed with lot of things in my head and, here we go.
I am thinking about what am i doing? Working? Do i really love what i'm doing?
I've ever told that i lose my passion, i even dont know what i love.
Life seems more complicated when we're growing up.


2 months left before meet the 24! I know, i should do something. Everytime i meet or talk with you, there is something that i need to ask
"dont you think we need to talk?"

Been a year, i even do not realize bout that. We should be brave to choose. Lose it but know the truth or keep it but never know the truth (and it doesnt guarantee, we wont lose it someday)
See, life seems more complicated when we're growing up. We need to think more, if we would like to playin around, we can't make everything to let the flow.

Happy sunday! When will the rain fall?
Not ready yet for Monday!

be healthy and be happy

be healthy and be happy

be healthy and be happy

work harder! 

and it will fly away...

Working working!

Sunday morning,

14 June 2015, 

Soekarno Hatta Int Airport with painful migraine and this place is just too crowded now

"People Like Us"

Sunday at 00.21 am

Just watched a movie. The title is People Like Us. I miss my Dad so bad :(

Just realized i even don't have picture with him. Everytime i tried remember about the memory about him. All i can remember is just our last fight before that accident. 

It's like bad memory. When every daughters out there have such happy memory as "father's lil girl" 

Just envy with some friends around me. Their father pick them up from office on Friday and have dinner together. 

it's ok, i will be ok. Just keep telling this word to myself. Maybe it's just impact from PMS and woman just be more sensitive because of PMS.

Good night. Just sleep and everything will be getting better when you wake up tomorrow.

Thursday Morning

Good morning, happy Thursday

09.26 Buaran Railway Station

Not in the mood to work or study today.

Could we just lay on our bed? 

one day left before payday, just cant wait for that. 

I need holiday so bad! 

heavy eyes

Friday, 11.32 am, office
now playing: love me like you do by Ellie Goulding
a cup of coffee and slice of simple bread from Delicious
current mood: desperately need sleep

Brought some reports to home, but still have to finish it by today.
Have many things to do but my eyes are as heavy as a ton of stones.


Happy Friday anyway.
remind me to look for a birthday gift tomorrow~

Jogja, Minggu dan hujan

Ada yang teringat waktu kembali ke tempat ini.

Beberapa waktu lalu.

Di tempat ini, aku bisa berbagi denganmu.

Berbagi cerita yang terlewat sampai ketakutan di tengah malam.

Kamu menemani dari kejauhan.

Aku kembali kesini.

Dengan sesuatu yang hilang.

Rasanya ingin mencarimu, ingin berbagi kesedihan.

Aku tau, aku punya yang lain untuk berbagi. 

Tapi Tuhan, 

Kau Maha Mengerti, ada ketenangan ketika kesedihan itu bisa dibagi padanya.

Aku sudah merelakan, hanya tempat ini mengingatkanku kembali pada cerita denganmu beberapa waktu lalu.

-Kereta api, senja, rindu-

How God sends the answer

Hello 2015!

Hello 23!

i am getting older kyaaa!

been a month and i already know the answer, no need to ask why again. I just need to accept it, everything will be ok, this pain will go away at the soonest. 

Happy new year everybody and happy birthday to me. Wish we would have a greater year and a better us ahead.

🎉🎂