the 8 pm man

that wasn't random meeting at 8 pm
someone set it to me
he said "i give you a chance, then do it"
whatever!
i did it cause it's just part of my job.

i met him several weeks ago. hmm last month.
at 8 pm he said
but he came at 8.20 pm
and didn't say sorry or anything


our first meeting made me "quite" shock, he's just too detail
i didn't have any interest, looked at him and wanna roll my eyes then said "oh my God.. ...you're just too much"


then, my duty hadn't finished yet


short story,


we met again in the next week
again
at 8 pm
now, he came earlier than before
arrived at 8.08 pm
he texted me to open the door, i came out
we met, he said "congratulation" (i just finished my final thesis presentation that day and back to office in the afternoon) i replied "thanks, how're you?" and i forgot how he answered it.

he sat in one room, no one there
most of them already back to home.
we had quite long discussion after finished my "duty" (maybe about an hour or more)

"hmm, he's so smart, literally smart"
i learnt something about company cost and new tax strategy that night

we went home together by train, continued the discussion.
i should leave first at the second station

he continued his way back to home, so did i
we do not have any communication until now

no idea.
just randomly remember it lately and
randomly open his profile


the 8 pm man
just maybe can see you again in another 8 pm

after long way

hey, been more than 3 months.
Too many things happened, i am officially 24 yo now. Hahahaha, dont know but, i am not that young like everybody said "Gi, omg you're still young" or "Ang, pls get a life, you're still young"
i don't feel like i'm that young. Ok. let's move to other topic.
So, How's life?

Let's start from new year
I spent it at one of coffee shop with Desty, randomly we met. Stayed at office till afternoon, went to cake shop to buy birthday cake for my mom and had about 2 hours conversation with her. Then she slept over at my home.

My Birthday?
It's going well. Lots of surprise, got lot of birthday gift, they sent it from H-1 my birthday till H+5
Hahahaha lucky me. Feel blessed!

Work life?
Struggling and super busy, but i love it. Really! I do love it! Seriously!
You know? Working is the best way to run away from ur love problem (no, i'm not that depressed :p)
Handling some important projects, waiting for payday and spend ur own money.

Get a life they said!
Just spent 6 days in Bali last Feb with my friends (actually, i only close enough with 2 of them, and idk the other 2) And my holiday was more than my expectation! I miss them actually!


School?
ah. i am workin on my thesis right now (literally right now). Hopefully, i will be done before mid of May! i should graduate mid of this yeaaaaaar!

What's again?
Oh ok.
Love?

You know? i learn something. We can't forget memory or something about the one we love. But will come a day, When you will stop remembering about it, you won't remember anything about it, even you listen a song, through a place or read something that can remind you about him. It doesn't work anymore. But does't mean you stop loving. We never know, till we fall to the other one (?)
Don't hurt yourself! Don't and don't ever! Do anything that can make you feel happy and comfortable! Do not stalk, if you're not comfortable around him (not bcs of him) but, bcs you wont to know anything about him or his new life. It's ok to make a distance, don't listen what others say! Be happy! don't hurt yourself! stop pretending you're ok, when you aren't!

Is it ok ya if i wont to say happy for ur new life? Hahahaha

So, let's back to questionnaire revision!


Saturday, 22.59, somewhere at Sabang Street

Dialog resah senin dini hari

12.12 am


Akan jadi percuma bertanya ke seribu orang,
Kalau bukan satupun dari mereka yang punya jawaban.

Apa yang ditakutkan?
Kamu tahu persis siapa yang punya jawaban.

Takut ditinggalkan?
Kenapa?
Pada akhirnya semua orang akan ditinggalkan dan meninggalkan.
Hanya soal waktu.

Kamu takut kesenangan ini lenyap kan?
Kamu takut sendirian?
Kamu takut dilupakan?

Ketakutan imaji akan kesenangan hilang.
Imaji akan kenyamanan hilang.
Kamu tahu bahkan ini semakin terasa semu.

3 am

3.19 am
What am i doing? Waking up with idk what exactly i feel.
That bitch easily disappear (again). What. The . Hell!
But i only end up with long list quetions in my head, getting mad with myself.
Falling for something make people become stupid and not realistic.


Gah! Maybe i just need to have jogging before working today!
Dont be mad dont be mad.
Dont cry dont cry.
Take a breath take a breath.
The pain will go away.
Will go away.
You can handle it many times.



Let meeee sleeeeeeeppppppppp!

Life Lately

After long time, due to busy life should manage the work load and school at the same time and now, i am here. Back to my bed room. Spend my weekend here, not doing anything, lying on my bed with lot of things in my head and, here we go.
I am thinking about what am i doing? Working? Do i really love what i'm doing?
I've ever told that i lose my passion, i even dont know what i love.
Life seems more complicated when we're growing up.


2 months left before meet the 24! I know, i should do something. Everytime i meet or talk with you, there is something that i need to ask
"dont you think we need to talk?"

Been a year, i even do not realize bout that. We should be brave to choose. Lose it but know the truth or keep it but never know the truth (and it doesnt guarantee, we wont lose it someday)
See, life seems more complicated when we're growing up. We need to think more, if we would like to playin around, we can't make everything to let the flow.

Happy sunday! When will the rain fall?
Not ready yet for Monday!

be healthy and be happy

be healthy and be happy

be healthy and be happy

work harder! 

and it will fly away...

Working working!

Sunday morning,

14 June 2015, 

Soekarno Hatta Int Airport with painful migraine and this place is just too crowded now